Thanks for this post. Like you, I am a high functioning, white woman with BPD. Lately, the stigma of this disorder has thrown me into a lot of self loathing and doubt, even though my symptoms are under control and I’m not currently acting out. I need help but I’m afraid to ask for it. I feel like there’s no space for even normal amounts of anger or disappointment. I feel like I have to mask constantly. I feel like a burden that I have to carry because if I don’t, I will break the people I love. It felt very good to hear somebody else articulate what I’ve been feeling. So thank you.
Thanks for reading, Claire! I’m so sorry to hear about your experiences, which are so similar to my own. Please remember that your feelings are so valid. It’s okay to be afraid to ask for help when so many medical professionals have their own biases around the disorder. And it’s nearly impossible not to internalize all the stigma around BPD. But we deserve better. We’re highly sensitive and gifted in so many ways. The work you’re putting in to manage your emotions is Herculean. And you’re not alone. Please reach out if I can ever be of help to you on your recovery journey. I’m rooting for you.
Thanks for this post. Like you, I am a high functioning, white woman with BPD. Lately, the stigma of this disorder has thrown me into a lot of self loathing and doubt, even though my symptoms are under control and I’m not currently acting out. I need help but I’m afraid to ask for it. I feel like there’s no space for even normal amounts of anger or disappointment. I feel like I have to mask constantly. I feel like a burden that I have to carry because if I don’t, I will break the people I love. It felt very good to hear somebody else articulate what I’ve been feeling. So thank you.
Thanks for reading, Claire! I’m so sorry to hear about your experiences, which are so similar to my own. Please remember that your feelings are so valid. It’s okay to be afraid to ask for help when so many medical professionals have their own biases around the disorder. And it’s nearly impossible not to internalize all the stigma around BPD. But we deserve better. We’re highly sensitive and gifted in so many ways. The work you’re putting in to manage your emotions is Herculean. And you’re not alone. Please reach out if I can ever be of help to you on your recovery journey. I’m rooting for you.